The WAIT

A few months ago I could only imagine what "the wait" would feel like and now I feel like a seasoned veteran. I know we've only been waiting for 3 1/2 months, but we started the whole process 6 months ago and mentally I started this journey before then so it seems a lot longer to me. I know couples who have waited for years to be matched and my heart goes out to them. We joined this agency for a few good reasons, one of which was their high volume of birth mothers and that their average wait was about 6 months. In our 4 short months we have been shown to at least 10 birthmoms. I want to say a couple more, but I kind of lost count. Most have chosen other wonderful couples. We're still waiting to hear about 2 little girls due in May. We are also waiting to hear about an immediate adoption where the baby will be discharged from the hospital on Monday. This is our second immediate placement opportunity, and by that I mean we have our profile shown amongst others and then anxiously wait for a phone call. The first time I was a nervous wreck, just hoping and praying we would be picked and frantically running around to prepare "just in case". Many of you know how I tend to be a little over prepared sometimes. Afterward I had a sad day returning a few tiny clothes, a car seat and a blanket. I was really unprepared at the time so I was just getting some basics no matter the cost, and returned them so I could do my usual bargain hunting and product reviews. I am more prepared this time, but not quite as anxious. Of course I would be absolutely thrilled, but I'm trying to hold my emotions a little more closely so as not to be as disappointed. This journey is quite the roller-coaster with all it's ups and downs.  It's hard to feel too sad when you know there is a couple who just received the call of their dreams, the one they've been waiting for too.  I feel so blessed to have my two little boys and look forward to another child to love. I just hope there's a birthmom out there that looks at our profile and just feels that connection, knowing that we are the very family that will give her child everything she hopes for.  Although it hasn't happened yet we're still holding on to hope.  Thanks to the great adoption laws in Oregon we can keep hoping right up until we move to Denver, so we've got a couple more months to go.  No matter the outcome this has been a wonderful journey thus far and I don't regret it for a second.  I just hope it has the outcome we so desire.  Keep your fingers crossed for us!

This is my precious little pal Annie. I snatch her from her mommy (my fabulous friend Rochelle) to get my baby fix. She is such a sweet little girl and always good for a snuggle.